You Know I am scared of the coaster!

Why oh why do I look at the RQ over and over. Boy do I like to torture myself. I told you I wasn't going to listen and that I wasn't going to get on that roller coaster this month! While the coaster seems appealing I am just not ready to get on (if you look real close you may see her right up front!) I continue to sit on the observation deck and see how this ride ends up. As for those of you who don't know the first rumors are showing up and even though they are a R2, it is a start to the rumors. These rumors say that the next batch could go anywhere from March 9 to March 14! Remember this is just an R2 rumor and there is nothing to say that this will happen. I sure hope for all of my friends waiting with these days that it true and of course I want to be that much closer to Emma but right now I will just continue bitting my nails and watch you scream as you pass by!

Not sure what to say

I had vacation time planned this week but I certainly didn't expect to spend it the way I have. Words can't begin to explain the sadness that I have felt this week. I have trouble sharing my feelings so here I am with a loss of words. Last May Mike's cousin Jeff was diagnosed with cancer. He had went to the doctor thinking he the flu and they found cancer. I hate that word, I deal with it everyday at work and I can't tell you how much it affects my life. At the time Jeff went through treatments, they said he would never make it, but he beat the odds and in August just after our family reunion found out he was in remission. A second chance to spend more time with his boys and his family but by November the cancer was back. On Sunday Jeff lost the battle against cancer at the young age of 40. I know he is now at peace and away from this horrible pain but my heart goes out to each one of his family members, his sweet boys and each friend that has been touched by Jeff.
Yesterday just after we had got home from the funeral my Mom got a call from my uncle Jimmy that my cousin Cathy had passed away. Last week she had been in the hospital with a blood clot but had since went home. She had recently adopted a sweet little boy and yesterday and loaded him in the stroller to take a walk. We don't know what happened but her neighbor found her out along her walk. Once again my heart is broken. She is a wonderful person who touches everyones heart she meets. My heart breaks for her parents, brothers, sister, her husband and her beautiful little one that will never fully know just how lucky he was to have such a wonderful mom.

Not going to do it!

NOT DOING IT THIS MONTH!

I mentioned previously that I had a dream that referrals came early and they went from March 7 - March 27 (now like I said it was a dream!). I know that this is not a possibility at all but it was a pretty sweet dream. I know it still wouldn't make us get our referral but it would make sure that so many special people would get their precious daughters. Now for reality I really only expect ONE day, ONE huge day! That still would mean that Lisa and Tracy
would get to see their beautiful daughters. Now of course I had to check in with RQ
this weekend and see the latest batch of rumors. Now mind you, I try not to pay to much attention to the rumors as it always seems to just disappointment at the end of the month but it's almost like playing the lottery when you buy that ticket and have hopes and dreams about winning until they draw those numbers and you have to come back to reality. Well, we keep hearing about speed ups (after 3 years a speed up! Right). I know those speed ups will come when we get to April 1, 2006. So for the early rumors this month, if you don't want to see it please stop reading now! Okay, I warned you!
Multiple agency's are reporting that the next couple of months are going to be bigger than what we expect (now remember we only expect ONE BIG DAY). They seem to think that the Winter 2008 case is more in line, which would mean that at the end of the month they should get to March 13 and at the end of April they should get to March 20th. If that stays in line with the next few batches it would make us have a end of July referral.
If you have never seen this chart it is a projection table on the RQ site predicting LID referrals based on what has been going on.

Now, as much as I would love to see the referrals get to March 13, 2006, I am not going to bite. I am going to stay with my original thoughts that March 7, 2006 will be the cut off day. That way if they get even one more day worth of referrals it will be like winning the lottery!

So it's been awhile, a long while!

Since it has been so long, I will get straight to the bullets!

• Right after the last time I posted (way back in January) we had the incredible ice storm. If you know anything about Kentucky, you know that we don't know how to handle the snow. My parents lost power for 9 days so we stayed at the new house (there is no furniture in there but we did have a matress to sleep on, heat and a hot shower)
• Work on the house has been VERY slow so I am crossing my fingers we will be in by the end of March. We are making progress thought. The floors are done, cabinets are in (- the trim) and the countertops have been ordered. We have painted, and painted and painted and we are finally moving some furniture in to the places that are complete. Of all the rooms it looks like Miss Emma's room will be complete first. I promise to post some picture soon.
• Work has been crazy. The economy sure hasn't hurt the fact that lots of people need surgery!
• Last month the referrals went from March 3- March 6! Only 23 very long days away but come the end of the month I will see her! With the 7th being a huge day I am thinking we will only do one day this month but I am crossing my fingers that the 8th will also be in as there are many bloggy friends with these days!
• On March 29th we get to celebrate another year of waiting, bring us up to our 3 year wait and also celebrating Mike being another year older!
• I am getting tired of seeing all the girls at work having multiple babies while I still wait for one (no offense, I love all the little ones but it's not easy to see everyone finishing round 2 while I still wait for #2). I hear alot that maybe by the time we get Emma the new one will be their age since the last ones are now 2 or older!
• It's so exciting to see all these little ones who's blogs I have been following starting to come home. I have loved following each of their journey's!
• Oh, big one! Last night we finally got cable and wireless hooked up at the house so now I have no excuse not to blog! I am blogging from my new family room now!!
• I love March Madness but since my wildcats are going to the big dance I am just not as interested but for Mike I will cheer on the Cards and hope they get a #1 seed!
• I am on vacation this next week, well sorta. I'll probably work a little just when my docs are there.
• I had a dream that the next batch of referrals arrived early and they went from March 7-27th! Hey, like I said it was a dream!
• The next few months are going to continue to be busy: Courtney gets her junior ring and ring dance, Stevie makes her First Communion, Charlee, Katie, Corbyn, Mike, and Tommi have birthdays, Chase graduates from high school, lots of work still to be done on the house and I still have family credit hours to do for the adoption.
• You would think that in having 3 years to save for this adoption we would have everything paid for. Somehow things always seem to come up. Last month Mike's truck blew up so a new vehicle for him, of course the house always cost more then you think and did I mention all the extra we have spent on updating and redoing paperwork during the wait. It looks like overtime is in my future.

I guess that's a little update on what I have been up too. Hopefully things will slow down a little once we get moved in . I will try to put some new pictures of the house on so you can see the progress. Hope to talk to you all soon.